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Dreams can be powerful things. They are said to reflect memories, fears, or desire. Many are recurrent.
I myself have three recurrent dreams, one in which I speak to my Uncle Steve. He was financially smart, so it is no surprise that I have this dream when money is tight. The second is the one in which I have to get to class. I can’t seem to remember my schedule, or my locker combination. This reflects the lack of preparation I am feeling towards a specific event happening in my life.
The third…..The third I can find no meaning for. I have it frequently and it is incredibly vivid in its horror and detail. I remember color, smell, even tactile sensation.
In this dream I am hiking in the woods. Who I am with varies from time to time, but the details are the same. The sun is shining through the leaves and a gentle breeze is blowing. It is fall because the leaves are beginning to change color, and the sky is a clear, bright blue.
I am feeling very happy and content with where I am and I breathe the air in deeply….
….and there is a crack of a branch and the crunch of some leaves. A bear is coming onto the path behind us.
In fear, I run toward a huge tree, hoping that I can keep the trunk between the bear and myself. I get closer and closer and just as I reach it, I am snatched by the back of my jacket. The bear, in it’s fury, tears at it, exposing the down feathers and eventually my flesh. I feel the jaws clamp on my shoulder and I am flung back and forth like a rag doll. The slashes in my skin burn with pain. My shoulder feels the pressure. The bear throws me to the ground and I suddenly feel…..nothing.
I can’t move, but I can see the immense legs as the bear stomps around. I am aware that my companions are safe. But I still smell the animal’s scent. I can feel the heat of his breath and the stiffness of his fur. I see my jacket in shreds and one of my boots. And the last thought I have is “Oh my God. This is how I will die.” Then I wake up.
It is the same all the time.
Last week, as I was flipping channels, I saw the story of Timothy Treadwell. Nothing else was on television, so I began watching. I was drawn in by this man who was living so close to and photographing these immense creatures. And then they began to show the bears getting agitated and aggressive with each other. My heart began to pound in my chest and I was shaking, but I couldn’t tear my eyes away. The animals were fighting over fishing area. They bared their teeth and their eyes flashed yellow. I knew that Treadwell was eventually killed by the very creatures that he felt a kinship to. Before I knew it, I had tears streaming down my face.
I had to turn off the television. This was too much for me to see.
Why am I telling you all about this? I don’t know. I need to get it out, to express this fear, to look for an interpretation. If you have any idea, let me know. I want this dream to stop.
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Shelli said:
on July 19, 2009 at 4:36 PMHoly shit. I have no idea, but it sounds really terrifying. I hope you figure it out because then maybe you will have power over it.
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Mik said:
on July 19, 2009 at 4:40 PMIt’s not just the bear that is shitting in the woods!
Maybe visiting a zoo and seeing a bear close up may help, then again, maybe it won’t, not sure but it is definitely a scary dream.
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Metalmom said:
on July 19, 2009 at 4:56 PMShelli-It is the power over it that I am looking for. I’ll take any help I can get!
Metalmom said:
on July 19, 2009 at 4:59 PMMik-I love to see the bears at the zoo. I find them majestic and I can watch them forever. I think it was the violence more than anything that set off the reaction to the show on tv. Scary doesn’t begin to describe that dream!!
HoosierGirl said:
on July 19, 2009 at 6:59 PMVery interesting dreams. I’ve been having some very vivid ones myself. Some are hopeful, some are disturbing. What does that mean, I wonder?
J.
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Metalmom said:
on July 19, 2009 at 7:18 PMHoosierGirl-I tend to remember my dreams and most are fairly tame. They usually revolve around something I did that day or something I’ve seen on television. This dream has been around since I was a teenager.
Matt-Man said:
on July 19, 2009 at 9:54 PMMaybe it’s not you dreaming of the bear, but rather the bear dreaming of you. Man, I’m deep. Seriously though, I haven’t a clue. Cheers Metal!!
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bubblewench said:
on July 20, 2009 at 6:29 AMThat’s a biggie!I don’t know how to make it stop, but I really hope it does, that sounds terrifying!
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Metalmom said:
on July 20, 2009 at 7:57 AMMattMan-I have heard that I’m the one who’s deep!
Think on it and ask Schmoop.
Metalmom said:
on July 20, 2009 at 7:59 AMbubblewench-Good thing I didn’t have that one while we were away! I would have scared the shit out of you too!
Finn said:
on July 20, 2009 at 9:56 AMFrom a dream interpretation site: Bears in dreams may represent a period of introspection and depression. However, this may be a part of a healing cycle, where the dreamer has retreated into himself in order to regenerate and in order to create something new and valuable in his life. Bears are highly regarded symbols in a variety of cultures and traditions, including the Native American tradition. Carl Jung said that all wild animals represent latent affects (feelings and emotions). The interpretation of the bear in a dream may be influenced by your perception of it and by the events in the dream. The bear may represent qualities in your character or specific aspects of your personality. Bears are usually associated with danger and aggression, but this is a very narrow view of this powerful dream symbol.
Are you engaging in self-destructive behavior?
Coal Miner's Granddaughter said:
on July 20, 2009 at 2:25 PMWow. I would probably be up all night watching porn after a dream like that. I’m glad you shared, I just wish I could help with the interpretation.
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phinz said:
on July 20, 2009 at 3:48 PMMaybe just sharing it will help dissipate its power over you.
Scary dreams suck. Especially when they have no apparent origin.
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Metalmom said:
on July 20, 2009 at 7:46 PMFinn-Me? NAH! Although that is a lot of information to consider. Where did you get all of that? email me.
Metalmom said:
on July 20, 2009 at 7:48 PMCMG-First Sir Mix-A-Lot and now porn. You never cease to amaze me.
Metalmom said:
on July 20, 2009 at 8:14 PMphinz-That idea did cross my mind. I hope this does help.