Friday May 14th 2010, 1:26 PM
Filed under: fantasy,miscellaneous,questions


Alone and Quiet

Finn asked, “What do you think about when you’re alone and it’s quiet?’

Okay so, I was sitting here last night. I had taken off my headphones because I wasn’t finding music that matched my mood.  Hubs had gone to bed hours before and the kids were also in their beds. Stupid Me had decided to have not one, but two, cups of French Vanilla coffee after dinner and it looked like I was up for a while.

At one point I looked at the clock. It was midnight. My mind was just….buzzing. I don’t know what you would call it, but that’s it. No words, no full thoughts, nothing but static. I wanted to write. If I could just find a topic, somewhere to focus that mental energy, I would be fine.

Nothing. And so I asked my questions.

This morning, I sat to answer them. The television is off and I am alone. All I can hear is the songs of birds and an occasional car going by. Some of the things on my mind are fairly normal…..What to have for dinner? What is the dog chewing on? Where is my other shoe? Where can I find a Bunny for Grant?

But I also noticed something else.

There are alot of  ‘shoulds’.

I should do laundry. I should mail those invitations. I should exercise. I should get rid of that  chair.

So I turned them off and changed to “I wish”

I wish I could travel more. I wish I had some skills that I could use for employment. I wish I could see my friends more. I wish I had something to do this weekend. I wish Hubs would quit smoking (more than anything in the world.)  I wish I could punch Grant in the junk so he’d focus on something other than ‘bunnies’.  I wish I wasn’t so lazy.

Well, I can’t change alot of those things overnight, but I can do two of them today.

I’ll call my friends and see if we can do something together this weekend.




8 Comments »

  1. Grant said:

    on May 14, 2010 at 3:26 PM

    Did someone mention bunnies? Where are the bunnies? I came running when my bunny sense began tingling, but now I’m disappointed.

    Foreign languages are a good skill to have for the workplace. I recommend – bunny. Although I think it’s still called Japanese by some people.

    Punch me in the junk? Good luck hitting that small of a target.
    .-= Grant´s last blog ..Today’s post is brought to you by the letter B =-.

  2. Metalmom said:

    on May 14, 2010 at 4:04 PM

    Grant-LMAO!!

  3. Marty said:

    on May 15, 2010 at 2:28 PM

    A rampage every now and then yields a sense of tranquility for me later on.
    .-= Marty´s last blog ..People on the Train #119 =-.

  4. Metalmom said:

    on May 15, 2010 at 2:45 PM

    Marty-Oh sometimes I get on a roll and just rant and rave until I’m spent. It’s been a long time since then.

  5. Sybil Law said:

    on May 15, 2010 at 5:34 PM

    I hope you got out!!!
    .-= Sybil Law´s last blog ..Quickie =-.

  6. Metalmom said:

    on May 15, 2010 at 6:54 PM

    SybilLaw-Last night thunder and lightning made me hide in the house. Tonight I’ma gittin’ mah drink on!

  7. Finn said:

    on May 17, 2010 at 8:55 AM

    Your mind sounds a lot like mine… :d

    Thanks for answering!
    .-= Finn´s last blog ..Contemplating The Spoon =-.

  8. Metalmom said:

    on May 17, 2010 at 2:41 PM

    Finn-It’s annoying sometimes, isn’t it?

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